1. |
I Almost Took The Leap
03:32
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I almost took the leap
But instead I flew away
It was weird, it felt like when I jumped I'd grown wings
When I landed I was crying
Not because I'd woken up
But because I'd woken up without the wings I grew when I was falling
I almost took the leap
But I was afraid I would wake up without wings again
It's strange, isn't it?
How you can miss something that was never there?
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2. |
Drifting Away
06:27
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Tops of houses are looking quite lonely this time of year
No matter how high I climb I know I won't make it
To think there's people who make it out alive, it's overwhelming
But we're worms meals anyways, I'll see you underground one day
I won't fall to my knees
I will not accept defeat
I won't fall to my knees
I will not accept defeat
I need a miracle
Like forgiveness or faster legs
No one knows these voices can outrun me
Turns out no one grant forgiveness anyways
Tops of building are always a bit crowded this time of year
No matter how hard I try I can't stay grounded
To think there's people who make it out alive, it's overwhelming
But we're worms meals anyways, I'll see you underground one day
I won't fall to my knees
I will not accept defeat
I need a miracle
Like forgiveness or faster legs
No one knows these voices can outrun me
Turns out no one grant forgiveness anyways
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3. |
Tell Me Something
03:35
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Tell me something sweet to get me by until tomorrow
I don't think I can make it
Tell me something true or lie if you have to
I know my heart can take it
If there's a chance that I can make it out alive you know
I'd really like to know
For way to long I've been trying to get along
With nowhere really to go
But skies, they'll fall
On us all
Take cover
You could be next, you could get broken
Oh brother
Here we go again, we're going under
Look at us now, we're flying higher than we ever have
And maybe that means that we'll fall twice as hard hurt half at bad
We all fall down and we stay down and play it down
And then we learn to take cover
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4. |
Liminal Heaven-Space
04:53
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Summer came, I felt my fever reaching past my head through me
Then everything went black along this highway
Itching, scratching, falling over, begging you to pull it over
Grab the steering wheel, we're going my way
Whoa, I know
Let's turn this car around
Really numb but feeling alright, hopping towns as passerby's
As vagabonds in train stations on highways
Floating through like ghosts inside of hallow bodies
Riding highs of remembering what being alive was
Whoa, I know now
We can't turn this car around
Summer came, I felt my fever reaching past my head through me
Then everything went black along this highway
Itching, scratching, falling over, begging you to pull it over
Grab the steering wheel, we're going my way
Whoa, I know
Let's turn this car around
Whoa, I know now
We can't turn this car around
We take nothing then they take all of us
We take nothing at all
Maybe one day they'll come back to us
Maybe they won't
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5. |
Sweet Pea
03:46
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Dear mom and dad
It's not your fault
I'm sorry I'm not the kid you thought you'd get
But my story's not over yet so don't give up on me
It must be hard for you to see the bags under your little girl's eyes
And the bruises in beneath her feet from outrunning the night to get to morning beams
And only seeing her a few times a week
Dear mom and dad
I know it's not at all what you planned and I can't say sorry enough
But can you forgive me?
This life may not be for me but it's the greatest gift you've ever given me
And I'll never try to give it back again
I'll try
Dear mom and dad
I'm still that little girl that you read to at night
And whose feet I remember you holding so tight
Who'd sing in grocery stores and hug you after fights
You know I'd take it all back
The yelling and the throwing and the bags would be unpacked
Mom and dad
I never would've done those things if I'd known in the slightest what it meant to almost lose a kid
I'd never try to leave again, oh the things I'd give
All you've ever done
Was given the world to someone who spat it back for fun
Who only gave you one good day for a hundred bad ones
Because for me it was just a day not as bad as the other ones
Dear mom and dad
I understand now what it means to grow up
And I hate it but I love you so I'll give it all I've got
Because you gave it all to me and that means so much
Dear mom and dad
I'm sorry that I ever got sick
And I'm sorry over and over again for what it did
Believe me, I wish you could've gotten something better
Than the long nights, the long fights and the guilt trips spent together
Mom and dad
The promises I made didn't last but instead broke before our eyes like glass
The things I hid under my bed weren't love letters or toys
But punching bags and headphones used to drown out your voice
And I'm sorry I never loved myself half as much as you loved me
Mom and dad
I'm sorry this took so long to say
But believe me, I've had this stuff written down since the day
We had that fight where I threatened to leave
I walked out and I wrote it down
I said that one you'd be proud of me
One day I'd make this up to you
Because you got a rotten child for a price much higher than a decent one
The world played a sick joke on us and you were the punchline
And I'm sorry I did all the punching all the time
Mom you're not the only one who sees the good on this earth
But I'm too tired to bet on it
And Dad, I know the world weighs you down but you built this ground beneath my feet
And even though there's always rugs being pulled from under me
Thanks for catching me and picking me up off the floor
I'm sorry for that one time I almost broke my bedroom door
Because if one more word was said I would've exploded
The world's a lot
But you say 'sweet pea I love you' and I set that love of fire
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6. |
91-5
04:52
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Sleeping pills don't do it like they used to
It's another one of those nights
There's voices talking at me trying to get me into trouble
And I may as well go down with the fight
And I may have been drowning in the belly of the sea
But no force of nature could hold me down, you set me free
And hopelessness is pouring out of these piano keys
I guess I'll keep on playing until my mind's at peace
The Devil can collect me, either that or sleep
When I'm in bed and the darkness seems to take me
Would you pray with me, pray for me?
Would you lay with me, lay with me?
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7. |
Kid Cry
03:05
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Wishing I could disappear can you hear the words above my head?
They float and fly and fall, I swear they wish me dead
Yeah I'm drowning in the sea but hey the grass is looking greener
Can you see that greenery?
Eden's waiting in the distance
And I'm itching just thinking about the living
Wishing I could forgive them
Oh, but I promise you
Oh, I won't promise you anything
I won't promise you anything, not anymore
Star-gazing up on top of planet Mars I see the earth, the atmosphere
It's feeling kind of heavy I might like it here
I'm never coming back oh, you should see it here
How do I get back?
Yeah I promised you I'd try my best, let's take a guess
I'll break the next one too
I'm a fraud and I'm a fool and you're so gullible and I'm so cruel
But you're used to me by now
Wish I could say I'm sorry but how you forgive me
I can't forgive me
And oh, if I wanted to you know I'd be haunting you right now
I'd pull you under with me but my beliefs disagree and honestly
The world's much better with you in it
I can't say the same about me
Oh, but I promise you
Oh, I won't promise you anything
I won't promise you anything, not anymore
Wishing I could disappear can you hear the words above my head?
They float and fly and fall, I swear they wish me dead
Yeah I'm drowning in the sea but hey the grass is looking greener
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8. |
Mia
03:44
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Mia don't look down, I think we're falling
Tell me what you told the others
Chew on words you cannot say and swallow all their dying prosper
Mia you're a brilliant June and I am just a cold December
And these hands were made for so much more than shaking in the dead of winter
Mia you're a sight for sore eyes
You look tired and I look older
But these bones, these bones will make us well
Mia, I am sorry but I must save myself
No one knows the hills that we have climbed
Our tired feet will heal but Mia that takes time
After all, this flesh was never who we were
We belong inside this earth
Mia, you and me, we're bound to earth
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9. |
Paramount
04:44
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There's chronic pain inside me
They say it's not important but I'd say it's paramount
There's wickedness within me
I've killed myself a hundred times, I've lost the body count
I've brought it down to just three reasons
Three effects on how my sickness has sickened me to death
I wrote them on my bedside table
No paper, no pens, no regrets
I wrote them on my bedside table
In lines, I lied more honest than I've been
All my life I felt things grabbing at my t-shirt
Wondering what they needed and pondering if I should feed them
If this loneliness doesn't destroy me first
I'll give myself to these things, I'll trade them in for this curse
This life, it isn't some game that could be settled on some ball court
Thinking I should fall first, wondering who I should call first
No time left so I think that I should stall first
No calls left so I'm hitting the wall head first
And when I said I didn't need anyones help
I didn't know I would be lying on the floor, calling and balling
And I wish I could've told my younger self that she'd be okay
But when I look back I wish I could go back to those days
Maybe in a couple of days
I'll remember what it's like to live a life with no pain
In a couple days, a life with no rain
But I won't wake up one more day knowing that tomorrow things will still be the same
Yeah I'm a little lonely, so what
Show me how it feels to live a life that won't own me or control me
Show me some God that won't disown me
Because from where I'm standing I just see a big empty sky
And I'm asking, why can't I see a single star shooting by?
Give me one more chance, I scream to mirrors in my bathroom, feed them
Pretend the things pulling out my insides aren't all these demons
But tomorrow I'll wake up hating all the space I take up
No one told me growing up would take the parts I thought I needed
I told myself that living wasn't that important but now I'd say it's Paramount
It's in living I found a good reason to believe that maybe I could make it out
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10. |
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I always hear about these bright lights that exist up in the sky
However they only seem to shine for those who don't have open eyes
And yeah, I'm far but from this distance I can squint hard
And maybe make out something that resembles a star
Now I'm down in the dumps or at the bottom of the sea
And I can feel the heavy pulse of water all around me
Gets harder to breathe, that happens lately as me what else is new
Clear I hear the darkness like I'm calling to you
And I'm alone for the first time in a while
Those three words have made a home inside my mind's bloody aisles shining style
Ask me why I'll ask again with no reply
And I'll repent without a cent left to my name, kiss that goodbye
And I remember as a kid I always tried to be tall, feared nothing at all
Not even the heights of my backyard tree, I couldn't fall
And now I walk around on tiptoes but I'm always falling short
I can't remember a time I wasn't falling for sport
As you can see I've got some problems and I don't get much help
I tried to play forgiveness but the problem was myself
And now this fist full of fingernails is all I can fell
I swear I'd give my lucky penny just to take the Devil's Deal
I tried to talk myself down but I couldn't get through
So now I'm asking for the backyard trees, some leaves and my shoes
The Velcro laces put me at ease as I climb high into the sky
I'll see the stars I say today but in the morning I'll deny it
Breathe
I can't breathe
Or feel the ground
Beneath my feet
To winds I plead
A fearless breeze
A gracious fall
Courageous leap
There are tolls those dimming lights took on me
Maybe I'm not meant for saving
There are holes inside my heart I dug myself
Pieces I'll never see again
Heaven knows the Hell that's made itself a home
Inside those concaves of my chest
And I'll the Velcro laces on this planet could never really help me
In the end
Breathe
I can't breathe
Or feel the ground
Beneath my feet
To winds I plead
A fearless breeze
A gracious fall
Courageous leap
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11. |
Teeth
02:48
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I feel free because I've never felt more alone
And in this place from here to there, I've never felt more at home
If I had teeth I could feel what it felt like to feel at peace
I could chew and swallow and see how it'd feel not to feel empty
In the moments just before I fall asleep I feel the feeling come and creep up from my feet, I think about it all the time
Nighttime notions in our brains a sickness catching us aflame
The fires in our hearts are burning out
Hallow faces all around us, scared to walk the road amongst us
Telling us the things we ought to know
Teeth and bones we carry only seem to make us weary
Of the things we left behind us, we are gone
Kitchen cabinets full of dishes, empty never to be filled
It's lonely feeling all of it at once
Perfect dark white dinner plates and melting pots we fill with hate
We tell ourselves we're better off this way
The only things inside us are the things we let divide
The good the bad beneath our skin and in our veins
Broken glass we walk on tiptoes
Don't make too much noise or else the world will hear and take away your name
In bedrooms we break window panes and lock ourselves up far away
We let go of the noise inside our brain
But I feel free because I've more at home inside these pockets full of
Fingernails I keep, keep me insane
Little things like memories in parts of me I can't quite reach
Help me fall asleep, put me at ease
We lose ourselves sometimes and we grow tired of these callused minds
We'll find someone to blame and start again
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12. |
Flowers In Her Hair
02:06
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Flowers in her hair
Oh she wore flowers in her hair the day you took that girl away
Flowers in her hair
She wore flowers flowers in her hair the day you took our girl away
Flowers in her hair
She wore flowers in her hair and then she went away
And we knew where she was going
And we knew what she would say
Instead she wore flowers in her hair
Then she went away
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13. |
Angels
07:01
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When you came to me you said I'd never fly
But yesterday I died and now I'm flying high
After you told me that I went to bed, in fact
I slept better than I think I've ever slept
Tell me, tell me what went wrong
I used to, used to play along
But now I'm wondering where I've gone
I've lost myself again, I'll find her when I'm dead
When you came to me I thought I'd never try
To live a single day outside this violent mind
But then the angels flew, I swear I never knew
How quick they disappeared and now, well now there here
Softer underground
Softer underground
Softer underground
Softer underground
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14. |
Overthrow
04:30
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If I cleaned my whole room
Would you lay dirt on the floor for things to bloom?
When I'm queen of this town
I'm taking you down with me to the ground
We need the noise but you love the silence, don't you
Don't you?
Kill the voices, just live in silence won't you
Won't you?
Just the other day I had a dream I flew away
I woke up on the moon in my room
Flowers blooming from my floor
Closed my door
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15. |
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I almost took the leap
But instead I flew away
It was weird, it felt like when I jumped I'd grown wings
When I landed I was crying
Not because I'd woken up
But because I'd woken up without the wings I grew when I was falling
I almost took the leap
But I was afraid I would wake up without wings again
It's strange, isn't it?
How you can miss something that was never there?
//
Hold my hand this time
I think it'll be alright
Tell me some things to remember on my darkest days
Hold my hand this time
It'll be a bit longer than last time
When too soon I thought I was ready
Oh hold me steady
And our shoulders will shake
And our hearts, they will break
And my mind will go off to darker places
And I will be gone a while
As my mind will be put on trial
For my health you'll trade in a smile
But I need you to
Hold my hand
(It's scary I know, for you and me both)
Hold my hand this time
(I think it'll be just fine)
Tell me some things to remember on my darkest days
(Touch my fingertips and hold my face as I cry)
And I promise you, I'll be back someday
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